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October 19th, 2004
06:45 pm - slammed the door and said "i'm sorry I had a bad day again"
that just about sums it up. a lot. i just want to go to sleep so this terrible day can be over. here's my window to bitch so why not. and it's weird, because normally when i'm upset it's an odd mixture of attitude and hormones. but i feel unusally...sad. and lonely. it's ok, i'll feel better soon.
anyway, i must say that i loooveee TJE. our lyrical dance is kickass. like no joke beautiful. i'm stoked. atleast i have that to look forward to. and kickline, those girls have a knack for making me feel better. and mr.ferrante cause he's awesome and i'm actucally learning in that class. which is unusal because i have some pretty shitty teachers that make me maddddd. and i can't always blame some of this crap on them. or my parents. or my friends. i'm doing this to myself. i'm letting myself down.
the thing i can't change is how i feel about **you. even if you don't relieze it. even if everyone tells me i'm better than that. even if i know it and i don't care. uhg. i'm way too tramatic.
your momentarily emo lover,
jillian
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Current Music: bad day, fuel
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October 14th, 2004
04:24 pm - with your baby's breath breathe symphonies, c'mon sweet catastrophy
what's cookin good lookin <3. i haven't updated for awhile. so let's see. what's new? this weekend was pretty...insane. my sister came home from college which was awesome cause i miss her a lot. on friday i went to a "huge party" at ben's. hah, that was fun. on saturday i had a kickline game, hung out with chelsea, and went to alisa's house. we watched physco. it was scaryyy. i liked it. i used to be so petrified by scary movies, but now i like them. sunday was extremely eventful. my parents went to a wedding and my sister went out so i had the house to myself. i told my mommy that shannon and andrea were coming over, which was true, but i left out the part that cody, ben, ivan, pat, alisa, and mike were too. it was fun but i'm not even gunna go into the mayhem cause i'd need about 45 minutes to type and i'm way too lazy. on monday i went shopping with kevin for his and sam's one year aniversary. congrats lovers. i also babysat and went to dance. it's offical, i switched studios and i'm a genuine TJE skank. :D very exciting.
so this week was a blur of campaigning, kickline, and dance. yea, i'm running for vice president. i actucally am into that lame school spirit stuff. whatever, it makes me happy. it's gunna be tough becuase i'm running against matt christy and he's awesome. i'll try my best and we'll see what happens. don't be a dud, vote for j.rud.
love,
Jill
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/mice/sleepy.gif) relaxed
Current Music: Hurricane, Something Cooperate
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October 3rd, 2004
07:51 pm - .."where's the brohas at"..
hey kids. so this weekend was too busy. On friday night I performed for tournament. It was fun and it went well but we didn't win, which was ok because the people that won def. deserved it. Saturday was absorbed by homecoming. First I marched for kickline in the parade which was cool. After that lisa had a kickline party and I had a really good time. The squad is tight <33. Later was the game. bleck. I was cold and wet and felt really bad about telling people to get out of varsity kickline's seats (that's our jv's job). but they did really well, even on the slippery grass. i felt pretty shitty all night which seemed to be the popular feeling. after that i went to a shindig at jenna's which was tight. shannon was there! which was crazy because i haven't seen her out in awhile. I slept there with amanda and linds which was funny. we made cookies and rice-a-roni but jenna sort of killed it so we threw it out. Today me and sam worked on our english project for five hours. we made a mural and it actucally turned out really nice. I wanted to go to saint james day but we didn't have time :(. chris mexdorf stopped by and hung out with us cause he's home from college for the weekend. that was cool. then a little while ago i went to youth group. the end.
yea, so question...can anyone (i.e. pulito) help me make my live journal pretty. i noticed today that it's really not. thank you <33
love,
jill
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: come back, the early november
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September 28th, 2004
06:10 pm - outside your window in the pouring rain
oh baby it's coming down. i don't like being cold but i like watching the rain and snuggling with blankies. so this weekend..on friday after practice i hung out with tyler which was fun. then on saturday i went to new jersey with my family. it was ok i guess, but i missed my sister a whole lot. on sunday i went shopping with jenna and KT. later i went to my kickline pizza party <33. it was really fun. we are such a little family. our first game was on monday. it went pretty well. there was a decently big crowd and we didn't fuck up too bad. it was a good time :). i am so exhuasted from going from acting to kickline to dance and getting home at 8:30 to start hw. this needs to stop.
<3, jillian
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: iron and wine
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September 22nd, 2004
07:50 pm - ...you make me go crazy
hey lovers. the fourday weekend was tight. here's the brief sum-up...on wendsday i was jewish with shai's family for Rosh Hashana and then i slept over which was fun. on thursday i hung out in the city with my parents and my brother and his wife. it was awesome, i love the city and my family, annndddd my daddy bought me the garden state soundtrack, which by the way is a great cd for a great movie. on friday me linds, heather, sam, shai, + some other homies went to the movies to see wimbledon which was very good. the best part was heather clapping like a champ. oh man i love her. on saturday shaina, jenna, and heather slept over and we went to kevin's house with some kids. we had a good time ;). on sunday i did the breast cancer walk and then sam came to church with me for bring a friend to church day. later i went with my parents to my other brother's house and played with his kids. they're actucally really cute for being major japs. so there you go! my weekend: abridged.
i've felt shitty lately. i'm not sure why, maybe it's hormones, but like whatever i do i can't get myself out of this weirdass mood. that's about enough emo for me.
love,
jillllly
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Current Music: The Shins, New Slang
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September 16th, 2004
09:42 am - caffine !
hey party people. so I just got home from shai's. on the way home my dad and I got huge cups of coffee from starbucks. i am w i r e d. last night I went to a Rosha Shanna dinner and that was cool. then we went back to shai's dad's house and ate icecream. then, attempt number two, tried to watch the full monty but we both fell asleep. again. ha. me, jenna, shai, and khall watched it last weekend, which by the way was an amazing night, but me and shai fell asleep. goood work.
so what's good? kickline! before it started i was sort of hesitant about it but those girls are awesome. and it's a great workout. our first game is the 27th, so we're kinda rushed for time. i've been practicing cause i want to make competition although it's really doubtful. they're having a jv competition team this year with 12 girls. and there's 20 of us and like 10 were on the squad last year. so we're trying out next friday. i just want to know that i did the best i could.
also, i made this school play. it's called 'jerry springer is god'. i think i get to hit someone with a chair :D. it's kinda stressing me out though cause i go from 2-3:30 and then have kickline from 3:30-6 so everythings rushed. and i feel guilty about being there half the time everyday. whatever. i have to memorize those lines. my preformance is october 1st..:)
today i'm going into the city with my brother and his wife. i looove the city so much. i'm gunna go practice now.
love you,
jill
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Current Music: led zeplen
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September 8th, 2004
07:13 pm - whew
word em up. so today was the second day of school, and it was actucally really fun. yesterday wasn't but then again i never like the first day. it's the wake up call that summer is over and that kind of reality check doesn't make me smile.
so my classes turned out to all be pretty good. my teachers seem much better than last year. i was really stressed out yesterday because my scheduel was pretty messed, but after more than a period waiting in guidance today everything got sorted out. oh, and they put me in lifetime sports haaaaa. it's like golfing and archery. whatever it should be funny. also, kickline's going really well. we have a tight team and everyone gets along. i'm really excited to kick at football games cause fall's beautiful and it's fun being on the field.
anyway, i'm gunna go collage my binders cause i'm that much of a loser :)
<3, jill
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Current Music: window, guster
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September 5th, 2004
02:24 am
word. i just got home from babysitting. good times...$50 and i got to sit around and watch movies like jay and silent bob strike back. kevin smith movies are really funny. anyway, today was my mom's birthday. she took me and sam to roosevelt field. we hit jackpot at hollister <33. then we came home and i slept and ate thai food (which is a freakin food orgasm). then i went babysitting for this really cute family. i like kids a lot.
last night i slept over annie's house with hannah, jen, kai, and max. it was fun. andddd eventful, ha, good times with the uu's. oh, and we saw garden state which was awesome. the soundtrack is fucking amazing :), i need to get it pronto.
you know what else i need to do? finish my summer reading. sweet jesus. i need to read a book and write two papers. i have two days. you know what's cool? i'm not even worried about it. i should get some sleep.
sweet dreams,
jill
Current Mood: mellow
Current Music: badfish, sublime
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September 2nd, 2004
09:06 pm
yea, so i was bored and saw this on someone's livejournal. uhg, i know i'm a loser.
Copy this whole list into your journal.
Bold the things that are true about you.
Whatever you don't bold is false.
01. I miss somebody right now
02. I don't watch much TV these days
03. I love olives
04. I love sleeping
05. I own over five books
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses
07. I like to play video games
08. I've tried marijuana
09. I've watched porn movies
10. I have been in a threesome
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy
13. I am lonely
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton
15. I cuss frequently
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have a hobby
18. I've been told I am a tease
19. I carry my knife/razor in my car.
20. I like to read
21. I've never broken someone's bones
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I hate the rain
24. I'm paranoid at times
25. I talk on the telephone a lot
26. I need money right now
27. I love Sushi
28. I talk really, really fast sometimes
29. I brush my teeth every morning
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
34. I shave my legs (females) or face (males) on a regular basis
35. I have a triplet
36. I have cross-dressed
37. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look
39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months
40. I know how to do cornrows
41. I am usually pessimistic
42. I have a lot of mood swings sorry, pms
43. I think prostitution should be legalized
44. I think Britney Spears is hot
45. I have cheated on a significant other in the past
46. I have a hidden talent
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have yea righhhttt
48. I think that I'm popular
49. I can whistle
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex
51. I enjoy talking on the phone
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants
53. I love to shop
54. I would rather shop than eat nope eating wins over almost everything
55. I would classify myself as ghetto
56. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
57. I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal
58. I don't hate anyone
59. I'm a pretty good dancer
60. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
62. I have a cell phone
63. I believe in God
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
66. I love drama no ma'am!
67. I have never been in a real relationship before
68. I've rejected someone before
69. I currently have a crush on someone
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
71. I want to have children in the future
72. I have changed a diaper before
73. I've called the cops on a friend before
74. I bite my nails
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
76. I'm not allergic to anything
77. I have a lot to learn
78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex sometimes ha ha ha ha ha
81. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved
83. I have tried alcohol or drugs before
84. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past that's shitty
85. I own the "South Park" movie
86. I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum ?
88. I enjoy some country music
90. I think that Pizza Hut did have/has the best pizza whoever wrote this isn't from new york
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can
92. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist
93. I have used sexual acts as an advantage in getting what I want. flirting isn't a sexual act right?
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all noooooo!!! i am so freakin afraid of him
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story"
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
98. I cry at least twice a week
99. I'm happy as of this moment
100. I think the Beagle is the best breed of dog
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/mice/worried.gif) blah
Current Music: 80
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10:32 am - good morning sunshine
heyhey. i just woke up. first of all, i have to tell you my body is still sore from kickline. owie. so yesterday my parents and i went up to brown to drop my sister off. she has a really big room which is unusal, and like people kept coming in and being like 'wow this is a huge room.' chelsea's dorm was on the third floor so my parents and chels grabbed something and went to go put it in her room. they left me with the job of gaurding the immense pile of stuff that was sitting by the car. in like two seconds a big group of like ten guys wearing brown tee-shirts came over and asked if i needed help. i told the room number and they whisked all the stuff away. i was impressed anndddd i didn't have to carry anything like a tv up three flights of stairs. yay. we met some of the people in her hall who were all really nice. after that chelsea registered and we walked around campus. brown, being an iv, is beautiful. and it's full of granola heads, as my brother would say, which is cool. it sucked when we had to say goodbye and my parents were teary on the way home. i'm really going to miss her.
<3, jill
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/mice/thoughtful.gif) pensive
Current Music: say it all, cake
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August 31st, 2004
12:01 pm - yo yo
morning..hey guess what to everyone that's been asking me. my padre fixed the outlet and i'm gunna put the camp <3 pics up soon. there's 211 so maybe not all of them. so yesterday was fun. me and jenna and sam went to the mall and hung out. after that my family went out to dinner. we're taking my sister up to brown tommorrow. i'm excited for her but i'm going to miss her. my house seems lonely, just me and my parents. i'm the only one left out of my two older brothers and my two older sisters. bleck. later i went to jenna's house with a little posse. we played ten fingers. i lost, and thanks to sam's brilliance i now know what lime juice straight up tastes like. ew
so question, when does everyone have lunch? i think i have it fourth. and seventh. way to give me two lunches :o/.
<3, jill
Current Mood: relaxed
Current Music: such great heights, postal service
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August 29th, 2004
11:56 pm - word to yyour mooommyyy
yo yo
today was amazing :)...after church, me, annie, and steff went to jones beach to meet up the fahs kids. there was around 25 of us, it was awesome. we chilled, went in the water, and made people pyramids. ha. and they through adam in the air, a lot. oh, and i learned how to body surf and i'm actucally pretty good. it's fun. i really wanna learn how to surf for real and i keep on saying that but i've been lazy and away. bleck. so later we went back to hannah's casa and hung out. we played wink on the grass :D. good times with the u.u.s, as always.
i'm extra sleepy
Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: TBS
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August 28th, 2004
11:09 pm - so sleepy
awesome day...
let's start off with last night/this morning...one thing that i thought was fucking insaneeee: jen's stepdad drove here last night at 4am from east eslip to bring us a happy 'mail' delivery. whaatttt. anyway, really good night and i love my girls. u.u.'s are fucking crazy.
so today, after three hours of sleep i went to t.carlton to get a haircut with my mommy. i have to say, i don't think that once in my life have i been pleased with a haircut. i think it may be because they blow it out all ... fuzzy. anyways, it's not that bad.
at like noon my family went to jersey cause my brother and his wife just moved there. i used to be under the impression that jersey, as my sister would say, is the armpit of america, but i was wrong. they moved into a beautiful neighborhoad and i'm extra happy for them. we walked around town and ate indian food. ::so goood::
i'm really exhuasted from sleep dep, talk to you kids in the am.
<3, jill
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: glory fades, brand new
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August 27th, 2004
11:29 pm - bienvenidos..
heyhey kiddies...so it's offical. i got emo enough to have a live journal even though i'm definantly not like that. ohhhh well. anyway, i'm at home with annie, sam, and jen. good times, these girls are kickass.
so what's been going on this summer...one word ::amazing::...for like the first half of the summer i worked at saint pat's day camp with a lot of awesome people, like pof+2 (me, sam, hillary, linds, danielle marsh, marygrace, + amanda) good times man. all the other counsilers were pretty chill to. the only thing that really blew was that we got paid $3 an hour for harddddddd work. like, these kids get out of control to the point where you need to jump ontop of a desk and scream at them. good one sam, way to be. as much as i bitched i'm probably gunna work there next year. ::loser::
so then for like most of august i went to sleepaway camp. it was sooo good. for two weeks i went upstate to unirondack. these kids are the freakin shit, like you have no idea. some highlights? 1.talent show where we dressed up as barbies 2.ninjew night 3.the rumpas (huge bondfire that you dance around while people bang on drums. and it was pouring. i was sooo muddy but it was crazy fun) 4.dare or dare night (basically sam, ryan, alex and I got an insane sugar high off koolaid during intersession and played jenga dare...and then expanded on the dares, oh man it was so funny, everyone in the lodge was like right..) 5.the dances (ah skeet skeet skeet) 6.mud wrestling (i kicked gwen's ass but me and sam tied) 7.baja unirondack (me + alexis trying to tap amon in a canoe :)) 8.estrogen fest ("shut the fuck up mother teresa"-nina) 9.skeet (oh man) 10.beanie man (i love nina and her ghetto booty) 11.bag under chadwick (so fucking hilarious) 12.put it in my mouth (hahaha) 13."poke fest" (ha camping with nerddyyy guys...one of the brilliant things to come out of this annoying kid's mouth. ok another story, me and olivia were talking and one of us said something about beer so this kid comes out of nowhere and was like 'wait beer, like real beer?' and we were like ?! and he was like 'are you guys serious?' and i was like no i was talking about rootbeer ::rolls eyes:: and he's like 'ohhhh i totally missed the root'). i miss you guys like woah and you need to come visit me.
the other sleepaway camp, sophia fahs, was on shelter island for a week. k, so the one thing i can say about this camp is i definantly just go for the people. they have a natzi motif going on throughout the staff but there's some suffolk county regulations blah blah...whatever the kids are amazing. and i think i broke about every rule there was...minus the like bringing weapons to camp one. good effing times. shoutouts to the grads, it really won't be the same next year. i love you guys.
anyways, we're gunna go be badass. talk to you laterrrrr
<3, jill
Current Mood: content
Current Music: leaving through the window, something cooperate
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